Blackseraphine

I should have been a celebrity because people have been curious about my business.

I've been out and about for four days and I've already got two neighbors asking questions.

One asked me if I've graduated. HUH? Yeah, eons ago! It was so out of the blue and so strange because, Hello! Yeah, we're neighbors but I have never in my life ever started a conversation with this person much less asked a weird personal question. Does this person wanna see my diploma?

The other one asked how was my dad. Um, he died four years ago. She was so shocked and said she didn't know. Like, how? When I know your brother who lives right next to you does! Then she just abruptly leaves. Uh, thank you for reminding me that my dad's dead, I guess?

You know my mother regularly waters the plants outside, you can go bother her and she has no filter. She wouldn't mind the talk. But I do. 

This is the reason I avoid people! Just last month, another person asked me personal questions. Mentioned, too, that I lost weight- no, that does not make me feel better about you asking me questions. Telling me multiple times I lost weight as if I didn't hear you the first time, what were you expecting me to do? Jump for joy? Telling me, 'You know, you lost weight.' Silence. 'You lost weight.' Silence. 'You lost weight.' I mean, what do I say to that? I can't think of anything to say because we don't actually talk nor am I interested in any conversation with you. 'Gee, thanks! You look... old.' Omg.

Obviously the celebrity thing is a joke. But I am always surprised when people even know I exist since I've pretty much kept to myself my entire life. 

It was surprising when I found out from a friend in college that some people from the other class were talking about us. It was startling when a girl that I thought looked somewhat familiar recognized that we went to the same high school. I bolted out of the store we were in as fast as I could. Embarassing, I know.  The social anxiety kicked in before I could stop it. 🙃