Alright, I managed to somehow tweak my layout based on another template I found (which isn't available anymore). It looks fairly decent, and I like it. Then I learned that layouts are supposed to be responsive, which this isn't. Dammit.
What the hell am I doing? I have no idea how many times I've asked myself that. It's clear that self-expression doesn't come as easy to me now like it used to. I don't write. I occasionally post a Facebook update to my two dozen 'friends' (lolololol) and I have social media accounts I barely use. So why am I even here?
While I took a step back to figure out what I could do with my template, the election happened. I have social media accounts but I've mostly avoided actually using them with the exception of Pinterest. I keep accounts to see what my friends are doing, and to see what other people are posting. I barely post anything. I tried posting regularly on Instagram, but a problem with the app on my phone led me to stop posting and I didn't particularly miss it. So when the election happened, I kept my point of view away from the internet. I didn't post before, and I didn't exactly plan to change that. I just waited for other people to say something. And I waited.
But there was silence. In the back of my head, I thought, the most vocal opinions are thought of to be true, especially for those who haven't formed their own opinions yet or haven't seen a different point of view. If we want a different opinion to be presented out there, we have to speak up. I'm going to have to add my voice into the din. And I tried. I probably have more posts in that week than I had in 5 years.
In the aftermath of these, I managed to speak to a few of my friends and while we have the same opinions to some degree, all of those I have spoken to chose to be silent through the whole thing. I have a certain admiration for the bravado of the vocal. While my friends, and others with a similar point of view were worried about stepping on toes, the other vocal people I've seen never seemed to mind or care. Meanwhile, when I wrote what I wrote it felt abrasive to the core. I was actively avoiding engaging people for years, and suddenly I'm posting opinions on politics. That's like an invitation for conflict. Before posting, I did think that maybe my Facebook friends who were posting an opposing view may feel offended, or attacked. And I did see this kind of reaction elsewhere on the web. But really, if a lot of people today feel they have every right to be vocal, even brash, then I, no, we, have the right to voice our opinions as well.
But now that the election is over and done I feel like going back to my corner of the world. Politics isn't my thing, and I'd like to stay away from it for time being. But I know I still have to keep trying to express myself. I need more practice.
What the hell am I doing? I have no idea how many times I've asked myself that. It's clear that self-expression doesn't come as easy to me now like it used to. I don't write. I occasionally post a Facebook update to my two dozen 'friends' (lolololol) and I have social media accounts I barely use. So why am I even here?
While I took a step back to figure out what I could do with my template, the election happened. I have social media accounts but I've mostly avoided actually using them with the exception of Pinterest. I keep accounts to see what my friends are doing, and to see what other people are posting. I barely post anything. I tried posting regularly on Instagram, but a problem with the app on my phone led me to stop posting and I didn't particularly miss it. So when the election happened, I kept my point of view away from the internet. I didn't post before, and I didn't exactly plan to change that. I just waited for other people to say something. And I waited.
But there was silence. In the back of my head, I thought, the most vocal opinions are thought of to be true, especially for those who haven't formed their own opinions yet or haven't seen a different point of view. If we want a different opinion to be presented out there, we have to speak up. I'm going to have to add my voice into the din. And I tried. I probably have more posts in that week than I had in 5 years.
In the aftermath of these, I managed to speak to a few of my friends and while we have the same opinions to some degree, all of those I have spoken to chose to be silent through the whole thing. I have a certain admiration for the bravado of the vocal. While my friends, and others with a similar point of view were worried about stepping on toes, the other vocal people I've seen never seemed to mind or care. Meanwhile, when I wrote what I wrote it felt abrasive to the core. I was actively avoiding engaging people for years, and suddenly I'm posting opinions on politics. That's like an invitation for conflict. Before posting, I did think that maybe my Facebook friends who were posting an opposing view may feel offended, or attacked. And I did see this kind of reaction elsewhere on the web. But really, if a lot of people today feel they have every right to be vocal, even brash, then I, no, we, have the right to voice our opinions as well.
But now that the election is over and done I feel like going back to my corner of the world. Politics isn't my thing, and I'd like to stay away from it for time being. But I know I still have to keep trying to express myself. I need more practice.
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